regrets!!!
should have taken note of the time and insisted my way, zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

had a nightmare last night, it felt so real and yet so alien, lol
damn freakish! never want to experience that in real life

xm calls me 尴尬小姐

yes, 尴尬小姐 feels very awkward ever sooooooooooooooo often
she finds it extremely hard to speak even a word to them,
to feel at home with them
even to just say 'goodbye'
because she reckon that it is super awkward to let 'goodbye' be the first and last word she said to them throughout the 'visit'
after leaving, she regretted her decision to not speak a word, because she thought she was being very impolite

duhhhhhhh vicious cycles

seriously, 尴尬小姐 is too self conscious/cares too much about how others sees her...
even though she thought it would be fine so long as she is accountable to herself,
and she is old enough to know what she is doing
butttt her mind tend to run really wild usually, lol

notes to 尴尬小姐
dun be too obssessed with these thoughts
just be urself